Have you ever pondered at different points on your journey with the Lord that if you could just get past this hump, that you would feel like a better Christian...all spiritually mature and everything? Here's what I know: the closer you step toward the Lord - getting a more accurate view from His perspective and with a deeper understanding of His Word - the more you begin to see yourself with clear accuracy, as well.
And as far I'm concerned, it ain't pretty.
Jump into the last chapter of Job with me, if you will. The man who had it all, lost it all, wondered about it all...and then finally got to hear the Lord's view of things. Here's what Job had to say after seeing from the Lord's perspective:
"My ears had heard of You but now my eyes have seen You. Therefore I despise myself and repent in dust and ashes."
James spoke of it as seeing ourselves in the mirror. When the Word of God is held up to our hearts, it reveals everything. The good, the bad and the ugly. The nearer we draw to that Light, it is true that we see Him more clearly. But the flipside to that is that we get a clearer glimpse of our flesh as it really is.
Isaiah saw the Lord in the year that King Uzziah died. His immediate response after beholding such glory was to cry out, "Woe is me! for I am undone..." Seeing the Lord caused him to truly see himself.
I encourage you to keep moving forward one step at a time, driven by the yearning to see Him and know Him more. But always be prepared to recognize the filth of your flesh along the way, remembering that more of you must decrease as more of Him increases in your life.
Father, I want to be near You. I realize that this means how much I will consistently have to separate myself from myself. I choose to crucify this flesh daily, so thank You for always reminding me of its weakness. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
Job 42:5-6, James1:21-25, Isaiah 6:1-5, Proverbs 27:19, John 3:30