It is on my heart to share some of the contents of what the Lord allowed me to pour out in Sunday School yesterday morning. Let's talk about the hard road, the in-between season, the wilderness...let's talk about Job.
Why me? Can't you imagine this thought running through Job's mind after living a blameless and blessed life, only to be offered to Satan on a platter for him to attack. One day life was overflowing with blessings, and the next day he was completely broken. There was no explanation from God in a vision. There was no angel messenger sent to comfort him and let him know that it wasn't his fault, that it was actually a huge compliment from God.
No. He just had to endure a swan dive from the mountaintop into the valley of the shadow of death without having a clue of what may have led to it.
I have come to realize in my relationship with the Lord that I am on a need-to-know basis. My life, my blessings, and my physical body belong to Him. Whatever happens to me in this life is up to Him. And since I am His, whatever happens to me - even if it is at Satan's hand - will work together for my good and for God's glory.
I encourage you to remember the entirety of Job's story, rather than just his hardship and the discussions about it with his friends. I urge you to keep reading through the valley moments and push yourself to the next peak alongside him. I urge you to get to chapter 42.
There had been a season of remembrance for many chapters, as Job longed for the days gone by when God had been close to him. There was a time of rebuke from Elihu and the Lord Himself. Then there was repentance, as Job realized that God was God...and he was not.
Finally, there was restoration. There was a double portion outpouring into his life.
It is during the valleys and deserts that we long to go back to when it was good, when it was easier - when we felt the Lord nearer than we do in the moment. Our hearts cry out, "Why me?" as we look around at the desolate place in which we find ourselves. We have no idea of what the Lord has in store on the other side of this trial. We have no idea what double portion outpouring awaits our faithfulness.
We may feel justified in saying, "Why me?" as we ponder our trials and storms, wondering how we can just make it back to where we were. But I can personally attest to the other side of it - the "Why me?" when I look around at the place to which God had been carrying me the whole time. Who am I that He would choose me to experience the pain, just so that I could experience the promise?
Father, thank You that my life is not my own, because You have all things under Your sovereign control. I present my body to You as a living sacrifice, so do with me what You will. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
The Book of Job, Romans 12:1, Psalm 121