I am gonna start this off with a memory that will inevitably embarrass me. It hurts to face what my true motives have been at times, and revealing what is behind the curtain is terrifying. But I believe that our messes are often what the Lord can use to get His message across in a way that a lecture never could...
When I was a senior in high school, we voted for the "Who's Who" categories among all senior classmates. I was selected for two of them, and I found out that I was one vote short of being selected for a third. I remember complaining to my best friend about not getting that third category as a sort of "notch" in my belt. I am so thankful for her honesty as she pointed out, "You already have two." I couldn't see that I sounded petty and ungrateful for being voted for two titles that were in actuality very honorable. I wanted one more.
Looking back, I can now see that I thought of that "one more" as something that could validate me. I wanted to be acceptable and impressive. I wanted to be the best at everything I did. I now realize that at the time I thought that if I were perfect, I might somehow be good enough.
Good enough for what? Love.
I have talked with teens who have a difficult time receiving love. They don't see themselves as worthy of being loved, and so they have a tendency to push it away or block themselves behind a wall. This could apply to romantic love, but that's not what I'm talking about now. This doesn't just refer to people who have had troubled homes and situations. This can be anyone - I grew up in a very loving home, yet I was convinced by the enemy that I had to live to please everyone in order to be good enough for love. And then further convinced that unless I was perfect at something, I might as well have been last place.
So I say this to all are hidden behind the wall of not enough, to all who are striving for perfection in order to be acceptable:
YOU ARE LOVED
I declare that the walls around you that would block you from receiving the perfect love of God found in Jesus Christ have to fall. I declare that the voice that is telling you that you have to keep striving even though it will never be enough - that voice does not belong to God, so you don't have to listen to it.
You are perfectly loved, so that you don't have to be perfect on your own. He finished His work on the cross, and is daily finishing His work within you. He is enough, and that is good enough for me.
Father, there are so many who feel worthless, and it hurts me to see them feel that they don't deserve Your love...so they back away from it. I pray that the lies of the enemy will be silenced. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
Jeremiah 31:3, 1 John 4:18, Hebrews 10:14, Colossians 1:12