Have you ever spent time in prayer and then realized you were subconsciously skirting around what the Lord was really wanting to discuss? That or you found yourself praying familiar words - all the while your mind was being assaulted with all of the ways that you were unworthy to even approach Him?
Okay good, then you're in the same lane as me (if you answered yes). I found myself this morning really wanting to pray a certain way, but I was constantly hit with the mess that I am. Finally, I just decided to say, "Lord, I'm a mess." And you know what...I think He wanted me to admit it.
There is a Scripture that is so convicting in the book of Amos that deals with bringing the Lord something, while at the same time living with hearts that are far from Him. In my case this morning, I wanted my heart to be fully in as I sought Him - so it took recognizing that I needed Him to get me there rather than put on the mask of "everything's great and spiritual here."
"Take away from Me the noise of your songs, for I will not hear the melody of your stringed instruments. But let justice run down like water, and righteousness like a mighty stream."
Does He want my song of praise? Absolutely! But if the heart behind the song is refusing His correction and trying to hide the mess rather than let Him with deal with it...then the song becomes just a fake noise. Justice and righteousness make the melody matter.
I dare you to just lay all your cards out on the table before Him, holding nothing back from Him. Don't try to use praise to cover up your mess; bring Him the mess, and then praise Him for helping you to deal with it. That song becomes a lot more fun to sing.
Father, You know what we would love to hide from You. You know what we even hide from ourselves, living in denial that we have any issues. Lord, I'm a mess, but I am Yours. I want to bring You true worship. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
1 Corinthians 10:12