Looking for a Hidden Face
I confess that I have attempted to write in a more structured way than I am accustomed to doing the past several posts. While it is still urgent to me to use this space as a diving board to jump into the deep end of the Word, I am determined to do so the way that He has built me to do it. I have tried to fit into a rigid style...that is not me!! Yes, Ruth is still on my heart, and I believe that one of the main underlying themes of her account will surface this morning.
Often I have felt in the past the connection of my relationship with the Lord as being compared to a couple dancing. There is something about a dance that offers a beautiful picture of allowing the Lord to take me by the hand and truly lead me...as I keep in step with Him. This morning I acknowledged the bittersweet fact that there are days, even seasons at times, that it feels like my dance Partner has stepped back a little. If we will all admit it, there are times that we don't "feel" as near to Him as we have in the past. What I dare to focus on this morning is our response in these seasons - what do you do when you don't "feel" His intimate leading on the dance floor?
There is a temptation to stand still with arms crossed and pout until His nearness overwhelms me again. There is a temptation to hang my head and wrestle with shame that I have done something to offend Him. Then there is the recognition that sometimes He steps back to see if I will come looking...
Yes, we are to be still and wait upon the Lord. Yes, we are to search our hearts and allow Him to let us know if there is anything in us that offends Him. But please recognize that it is the glory of God to conceal a matter, and the glory of kings to search it out. Sometimes He steps back to draw us to search for Him. Isaiah said that, "Truly You are a God who hides Himself..." Why do we play hide and seek as children? Because the hunt is so much fun! While I would love it if the Lord's arms were wrapped around me tangibly all of the time, would I spend as much effort in the pursuit of a deeper intimacy with Him if they were?
"When I felt secure, I said, “I will never be shaken.” LORD, when You favored me, You made my royal mountain stand firm; but when You hid your face, I was dismayed."
Ruth stepped closer and took refuge under the shadow of His wings. She didn't allow Naomi to leave without her following. Will you dare to do whatever it takes to go deeper in Him? Perhaps He has stepped back to see how much you really want Him...not just the security of Him. I dare you to stay on the dance floor and search until Your partner allows you to find Him.
Father, I love Your nearness, and I feel truly shaken somewhat when that nearness feels like it has escaped me. I choose to chase after You with my whole heart, because as for me it is good to be near You. Thank You for stirring me to seek You. In Jesus' Name. Amen.