I typically do not share my name in the sharing of the writing that is on my heart. However, I wanted to attach myself to this devotion in a way that lets all who read know - and lets the enemy know - that this is my story. Well, part of it.
It is a familiar verse that lets us know that part of overcoming the accuser of the brethren is found in the word of our testimony. About thirteen years ago I stood in a church service and felt the Lord all over me, stirring in me to go and stand in front of the church and declare something - declare that I was free. You see, the Sunday before that I had felt the sweetest release from hating my body. There was a recognition that I had been bound to eating disorders and the body shame that goes along with it...but then there was an amazing recognition of the freedom from this way of thinking. (Side note: it's amazing how we sometimes don't even realize the chains that are holding us until the Lord hands us the key to unlock them.)
When I stood in front of the church and declared freedom that day, the battle didn't stop there. It was like the heat was turned up, and I had to fight for what I had confidently professed.
Recently, this battle has re-visited me, and I guess that is why I feel so strongly to own this. There is a temptation to put on a mask and pretend that I am strong enough to fight this on my own, to not say a word to anyone and just deal with it behind closed doors. But there is a boldness rising in me to call the enemy out and let him know that I am not afraid to step into the ring again...hiding behind the same Jesus who has fought for me in the past.
It isn't in the sharing of what we struggle with that brings complete freedom, but in the testifying of the power and grace of the One who has died to set us free from that struggle. So, may this be an announcement from the mountaintops that the Lord Jesus was wounded for my transgressions, and that He was bruised for my iniquities. By His stripes I am healed. The punishment that has brought me peace was laid on Him. He paid for my freedom, and He is ever interceding for me. So, I say to the enemy, do you really want to go down this road again?
I challenge you to proclaim the testimony of Jesus Christ and His victory in your life. You never know who needs to hear your story.
Father, I am so thankful for the freedom and salvation You have given me in Jesus. I choose to declare that victory and that freedom over my life. I pray that in sharing a little bit of my war, that someone will find the courage to fight for freedom themselves. In Jesus' Name. Amen.