When you're a child, you think of the time to come when you will be able to do what YOU want. When you are an adult, you think of the time that has past when you didn't have to work...when you could do what you WANT to do. What we have is never enough, and what we want will never satisfy. What do you want?
I ask the Lord often in prayer to do whatever He wants to do. I felt a strange sense this morning as this thought passed through my heart; I felt stirred to ponder about being offered whatever I want. So, I ask you: if someone who had the power and ability to offer you anything you want came up to you and did just this, what would you ask of them?
I have found that this is a very good method of doing a heart analysis. Do you lean in the direction of choosing something not very expensive so as not to put them out, or do you lean to choosing anything big and shiny just because you can? Do you look for what you think the person might want you to choose, or do you confidently select what you have desired for a long time? The recognition of what your heart gravitates to begins the revelation of who you really are.
When my parents allowed me to choose any toy I wanted, it took me FOREVER. I have kind of always been the type to not really know what I want, and it is easier to let someone tell me what I should want. I think of the times that Jesus asked people, "What do you want Me to do for you?" I picture Him saying this to me, and my heart melts. I don't know. I don't have a long list that runs through my mind like a scroll. I don't have a pre-determined prayer request jotted down to hand Him. Perhaps I don't want to dwell on what I may want, because I don't want to know who I would be without Him.
You see, I felt Him dig to the core of me a few years ago and search out what I would request at His feet. All I will tell You is this: I have decided to want Him. To want whatever He wants. To choose whatever He chooses. I want the core of me to truly want His will...and to want it to happen His way.
Father, please do whatever You want to do in my life. I genuinely desire this, so I earnestly ask it in Jesus' Name. Amen.