I will never forget an instance that occurred twelve years ago. I didn't realize that I was about to go head to head with the spirit of fear, but the Lord let me walk away with the victory...and I have never been the same.
I was in a gathering of ladies who were intently seeking the Lord, and the Lord drew near to us. However, as His Presence began to saturate me, He began to expose one enemy of my soul to a degree that I became almost crippled on the floor...in fear. I had no reason to be afraid in that moment, but I was terrified. I remember feeling like the Lord was showing me that I needed to be free. That He didn't give me a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind.
I began to realize that this enemy was not just in that moment coming out of nowhere to ambush me...it had taunted me for most of my life. I remember seeing it as though it had battled me for years, throwing bombs and grenades from afar...but was then allowed to come close enough for me to identify it. The battle was intense, but the Word won.
I saw afterward that my shield of faith had taken some blows, and that it needed repair. "Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the Word of God." I needed His Word to win, and I needed His Word to heal. There is a specific Scripture passage that I clung to from that point on, and it is now engraved on my heart.
Maybe I am not the only one who has struggled with, or continues to struggle with fear. Maybe I'm not the only one who held back for most of my life, never feeling good enough but always feeling afraid. We are made perfect in love, and the perfect love of the Lord truly casts out all fear. We may be taunted with the thought that we are not enough, but we can win with the knowledge that He is enough. I was not given a spirit that makes me a slave again to fear...I was given the Spirit that allows me to call on God as my Father. And nothing makes fear more afraid than a child of God trusting in her Father.
Father, thank You for exposing fear. It may have been painful, but freedom is worth the battle. Please continue to set the Body of Christ free from fear. Let faith arise in us, I pray. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
2 Timothy 1:7
1 John 4:18