Two weeks after I got my driver's license I experienced my first car accident in which I was the driver. I was driving home and had taken my eyes off of the road reaching for something in the passenger seat. I began to realize that the terrain I was driving on didn't feel like the road, so I looked up to see that I was about to hit a sign...and after that sign was what appeared to be a huge ditch. Being immature and inexperienced I jerked the wheel to the left, losing control of my car. In what seemed like a lifetime, but was actually a few seconds, I managed to cross the highway and roll my car over and over in the opposite ditch. Finally landing against a fence.
I overcorrected. The mistake I had made had led me out of bounds in one way, so I made a desperate attempt to right the wrong...and ended up out of bounds the other way.
I think of this wreck, and I realize that it is not the only time this has occurred in my life. I confess that balance is not a strength of mine. I have a tendency to be somewhat extreme; you know, that all-or-nothing type personality. I used to work out five hours a day, then it went to zero. I go for a long time without doing any exercising, then expect one workout to achieve what I want. When I see priorities or habits that need adjusting, for some reason I don't try to do little adjustments...I jerk the wheel.
I don't know if it is in effort to show that I am trying to fix something, but it's like I subconsciously go overboard before I can help it. Overcorrecting my children, as well, rather than leading them to the right path. And just in case I am not the only one like this, I share this struggle with whoever would like to read it. So what does an extreme personality type need to do when there is a needed adjustment? You know, instead of jerking the wheel and ending up on the opposite side of the road?
Rather than overreact, we need to learn how to be still and know that God is God. We need to seek Him first and let Him guide us through correction. And we need to realize that He leads us one step at a time. We may try to achieve the desired end overnight, but He knows that it may take years.
He is committed for the long haul, doing a work in us one day at a time. We need only commit to let Him.
Father, I don't want to live an unbalanced life, going from one extreme to the other. I don't want to spend my time overcorrecting, then having to correct what that caused. Only You can keep me in balance, so I choose to let You. I choose to trust You. In Jesus' Name. Amen.