“And if I perish, I perish.”
I dare you to open up your Bible, relatively close to the middle, and read ten chapters in which God’s Name is not even mentioned. I dare you to read one of the two books in the Word named after a woman. I dare you to get out your shovel and dig into the beautiful story of Esther.
I could honestly camp out here for days. It isn’t just a romantic book for women, but a powerful account of intercession and courage.
This is another one of my “favorites” for multiple reasons; words that have truly been written on my heart, that would be easy for me to dive into and lay out a few uncovered treasures. However, one aspect is tugging on my heart to draw to attention to it: the queen went before the king without an invitation.
It is difficult for us to wrap our minds around the way the culture operated in Persia during this time. We could research and study
the details of that kingdom to better understand the way they lived. We could find out why the king would have anyone who came before him without being summoned executed…even his queen.
All I know is that in my spirit, I feel a stirring to go before the King…even when I don’t “feel” invited. I feel a stirring to fast and pray in preparation for presenting myself to the One on the Throne. Yes, we know that we are to come boldly to the throne of grace. But am I the only one who doesn’t always feel like I can just walk into the Most Holy Place at any time? Am I the only one who feels like I should always knock and wait to be invited in with goosebumps and words of confirmation?
It had been 30 days since Esther had been called to come before him. How long has it been since you felt an overwhelming drawing to be in His intimate Presence? How long has it been since you felt the Lord call you by name and invite you into His chambers?
It is beautiful the way she decided to go with purpose, whether it cost her life or not. But how glorious that the king saw his queen…and was pleased.
May we never attempt to come before the Holy One wearing garments of our own righteousness. May we realize the importance of prayer, dawning the wardrobe of preparation and reverence. He is a holy God. May He look upon us and be pleased as we approach.
Scripture to read:
Esther Hebrews 4:16
Isaiah 43:1 Song of Songs 1:1-4
Father, sometimes I may not get a sense that You are calling me closer, but I choose to come before You, for intercession…and just to be close. If I perish, I perish. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.