Not My Will
Recently I received injections in my back, and I am now having this memory of one of the nurses asking me the routine questions that they ask before you have something done like this. Of course, one of the questions was, “Do you have a living will?” That makes you kind of start to re-think being put under with anesthesia.
A will…a document that states clearly what you want to happen when you are no longer here, and whom you want to receive your possessions that you are leaving behind. What do you will? What do you want to happen in your life and after it? We may not all have something legally documented, but we each have a will of some sorts. We were given this ability to know what we want.
How easy is it to lay your will down and choose someone else’s? By nature we are selfish. We want what we want, when we want it, and how we want it. I dare you to try and fit that into your prayer life. When you choose to live for God, your will becomes irrelevant. What you want should always be secondary to what He wants. If Jesus laid His will down—not just at Gethsemane, but in everything He did—how much more should we! If we are to take up our crosses daily, then we are to lay down our wills daily.
But how do we know what He wants? How do we know that when we say, “Not my will, but Yours be done,” that we actually know what His will is? Take some time and find out what it is! My husband typically knows what I want in a particular situation because he knows me; he has spent time with me. We will not know the will of God by constantly seeking to fulfill our own desires.
When you offer your body as a living sacrifice, when you choose to just be putty in His hands—you not only choose His will, but you are proving to the world what His will actually is. A sacrifice had no choice in its slaughter. It was a selfless offering to the Lord.
Lay your heart on the altar; allow your flesh to become merely a vehicle that carries His Presence and reveals His will in this earth. Prove who He is. It is not about our will…but let His kingdom come and His will be done on earth as it is heaven.
Scripture to read:
1 Thessalonians 5:18
Father, I often long for the cup I am to drink to pass from me. But I say, as Jesus said, that I don’t want my will to be done. I want what You want. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.